今早在央视新闻里听到艾滋病报告，现在性传播已成为主要传播方式，中国人的开放看来是不放过任何一个方面，以后419的人都要注意了，濮大叔的广告都说好多遍了。其中男男性传播占百分之三点多。头一次在新闻里听到讲同性性的问题啊。

这两天在听一张布鲁斯吉他的合集。第二首是Eric Clapton的Bad Love，而且是24 nights版的。老徐，还记得这歌吧？考研那会儿，你整天听这个，就是24 nights版。

有一回传一首wonderful tonight给老刘，他拒收，说不听白人的布鲁斯，我劝他听一下，因为绝对是他没有听过的版本。一听之下，他哈哈大乐，“傻姑娘，走调儿啦”。嗯～嗯～，是我在钱柜K歌时录的。

今天一路在听Marvin Gaye。听着听着，我自己嘴里却哼起了“we have no past, we won't reach back...”啊，不知道为什么我会听着一首歌却哼起另一首歌，常常会这样。不过，老徐，你还记得这歌吗？现在还听Cyndi Lauper吗？我上半年驴了她在法国的演唱会以及Twelve Deadly Cyns的MTV全收录，回头刻盘给你。

昨天看一本关于聊斋的书，里面讲到关于“老爷”的考据，大意是六朝以后才有这个说法，直到明朝也还是用来称呼自家的爹，直到清朝才慢慢开始用来称呼为官者，取为民父母之意。

于是想到以前看的好些古装电视剧，仆人似乎都是管主子叫老爷，看来都是瞎掰了？不由得想起前些年在家陪亲戚家的小孩看《还珠格格》，听到里面尔康念他最喜欢的诗，不由让我吓一跳。好歹也是当朝陪伴君主身边的有身份者，居然最喜欢的诗句是明朝的抗清名臣的诗，真是不怕被砍头啊，算是琼瑶奶奶保了他一命了。这戏里随便看个两三集就能挑一堆硬伤出来，也不知道当初面是怎么死心塌地喜欢上这种东西的，但凡有电视台在放，就必然再复习一遍。

放下这本讲聊斋的书，我接着看龙阳逸史，这是本明朝的书，里面的一府典官自称为“我老爷”，让我又不由生疑，明朝的人不应该是这么叫自己的爹麽？倒底是老爷是个什么玩意儿啊？？

前一阵子看了一篇考据明清狎优伶之传统的文章，里面说到梨园的各行当，除了旦角，皆是卖艺不卖身。也就是说旦角是卖身的罗。果然《霸王别姬》里国荣是被葛优有道理地狎了的。但是巩俐的存在又很奇怪。按照考据的说法，之所以男伶会受欢迎，是因为清代北京的官宦有明文不可狎妓，于是众人转向男风，同时优质妓家都移往别地，所以北京存留的妓家质量很差，且越来越差。虽然我觉得巩俐本身就不漂亮，但是也还不到磕碜的程度吧？

然后又想到《夜奔》。当初看这部电影时就感觉很奇怪，为什么这几个男人会去抢一个演林冲的武生呢？武生的扮相不比小旦，一身肌肉的，一点儿也勾不起男人的情欲吧？照之前考据之文的说法，梨园行当里的生角儿是不卖身的，师傅找徒弟夜宿也都是挑旦角儿。这就很奇怪了嘛。不知道那编剧是什么个考虑。不过OST很好听，大提琴勾人心弦。

今天偶尔看到以前和学生一起的相片。哦，那时候我还相当地年轻哦，比学生里最年老的一个只大一岁而已。

手里还留着好多学生的作文，写得狗屁不通又可爱无比。每次我都会想一些让他们吃惊的题目，然后让课上最捣蛋的几个写作文。我告诉他们，不要在意语法，但是要让我看得懂，要让我知道你们其实都是有想法的。

过三八妇女节的时候，我让他们写《快乐的节日》，虽然他们全都是如假包抑换的男同学。

1 

Today is March 8. Today is the women’s day of all the world. I think this day all of the women are very happy.

I’m very sorry. I is not a woman. I want to be a girl next life, because the woman have a festival. The man don’t have!

This day women can no cooking and washing. The men must do it. because today is the women’s day.

Today I give my mother a call. My mother is very glad. I can hear she is very happiness.

2

I live through a don’t happy festival on yesterday. Beacause the festival isn’t belong to me. It’s Woman Festival.

I remember I was very like Spring Festival and Children Holiday in my children years. Perhaps everyone know the cause.

In the Spring Festival. have many foods and many toys. The important cause is I can don’t go to school.

The Children Holiday may not study too. Live through the holiday belong to me is very happy.

Now I can’t live through the Children Holiday. But I can live through the Christmas and Lover Holiday. No! No! I can’t live through the love Holiday. Because I haven’t girlfriend. But I want to try to live through the holiday. I think is very well.

Is happy everyone on theirs holiday? The key is “No”! I think have many women don’t happy on yesterday.

For example. my mother. she miss me and my sister very much. So. she isn’t happy everyday. There are many of mother in the world.

In the don’t happ festival. I hope my mother happy. I hope the festival is Happy Festival. Let every woman is Happy!

3

Today is a particular day. cause the Three Eight holiday is coming.

Women are very important as men in the world. Everyone have known this standpoint. and also, it is as paticular as long time. Such as politics. education. trade. medical. martial and so on. and their position doesn’t lack.

Today. It is a fine day. not wind. and the temperature isn’t very low. All people spend joyfully the holiday; some programs were made by the TV.

另一部分男生，我让他们写《我不是个男人，我只是个男孩》，他们很气愤。

1

This words sound it is not right. but think carefully and find that. a true man shoud be many duty, such as family and society. He must to look after his families and the others. But we are un-adultes so not only I couldn’t take care of others but also I need be looked after.

If I am a true man, I think I needn’t sit here and hear this English lesson and not write this composition.

But I am a boy.

2

I am not a man, I am a boy. I am a 21 years old boy. By the 22 years old, I can have a wife.

Do you think How old is a man? If you say that a man can’t to say use the age. I’ll say nothing.

I am a boy. I am just a boy in your eyes.

3

When I know this problem I think a long time. What does teacher mean? I don’t know. Isn’t she playing me! She gave me a big trouble. I have no a good idea. So let me try to talk about this problem.

When I was twenty years old. I thought today I’m a man. I can say goodbye to boy. Now I can do a lot of things of man’s. For example, I can make girlfriends. An army is a man. So I belive. I’m a man not a boy.

还有一次，让上课不好好听课的孩子写《假如我是最可爱的猫》

1.

If I’m the prettiest cat. My favourate food is fish. I like to catch mouse.

My eyes are green at night.

I love to sleep in day. But I’m very lively at night.

My owner is very like me. She likes to play with me.

I’m very prount because I’m one of the greatest cats in the world.

My sound is very sensitive.

If you are a female cat.

Please choose me.

2.

I don’t like any cats. They are all lazy. But, why you ask me to write this project? This animal can eat morse.

If I’m the prettiest cat, I’ll don’t study English. I’ll do my faverite things. I don’t like sport. I don’t like army too.

I don't want to become a cat. If not, I wish that I am a dead cat.

3.

《Tom and Jerry》was produced by The USA, it’s very interesting. It described the mouse —Jerry and the cat — Tom struggled each other. Children, boys and girls, even a man of a woman and some old people like it very much, but I hate it, because I am a cat, and in that animated film, it described that our cat was so foolish and the mouse was very clever. I protest!!! Our cat eat the mouse for the human, but we didn’t get human’s respect, contrary, we was insulted by the human. I hate human. If we are big than them, I will eat them. If they won’t change it, I will call my brother, tiger — He is in the forest to struggle with the human!!!

I think our cat are very clever. We are more clever than the mouse, the pig, the dog, even the human. We just hide it, we can do lots of things that the human couldn’t do, such as we can catch the mouse by our hands, we can jump from the trees, the roof, even a tall building, and so on. The human didn’t know what our cat think about. They think that themself are the most clever in the world, they think other animals are low-grade. They are foolish! They are wrong!!! They didn’t know our cat’s mentation, and we think more than the human, the human only know to destroy the earth!!! One day our cat will kill all the human to heal the world! And tommorrow’s earth will belong to our cat!!!

Yeh! Yeh! Yeh!

3.

If I’m a cat?…… If I’m a cat, may be I won’t kill mouses. I don’t think all the mouses are the enemies, like the mouses, are very useful for people’s experiments.

There’s no a verity what cats must kill mouses. I think if they are friends, the world won't be destried. Now the world is destried by the people. The animals are killed by them. Maybe cats will be killed, too. So I think, we must love all lives.

If I’m a cat, I’ll tell the people love all animals. Because maybe the earth has no life.

I’m a cat, may be, I like tearing paper into pieces, but I think this is bad idea.

Right, mouses are harm for the crops. But they only want to let them alive. They live by themselves. I’m a cat, I can alive only by people. I don’t do well on something but mouses can like unite.

If I’m a cat, I’ll be a student, and the mouses are teachers. At least we will be friends. I can’t express myself in English. Enough had been said on how to learn English well, but I

4.

If I am a cat, I will be the king of the cats. So I can let any other cats do things for me. I will be not tired all the day for the life.

Everyday morning, the cat people will be celetable the food for me, they take foods to me bed because I still in the sleep, the enploy take the water for me wash the face when me have the food, everybody must stand beside me. After me have the breasfast, I will be let any other cats run. I let them run again and again till them can’t run. I will be not need to study. I will let the English students write cospison everyday. I will the No.1 in the cats.

Suddenly I find I am dreaming.

5.

If I’m a cat, I’ll eat a lot of fish, because it is very delicious. And other things I also like to eat.

I’m very lovely. So people like me live with them. I never break them’s things. Always people let me play with them’s children. So a lot of people like me very well.

I never dirty myself, I always keep my body clear, and people bathe me twice a week.

6.

If I’m the prettiest cat, I think I have a good owner. I will try my best to make my owner happy. The owner must be like me very much, then he will raise me very careffly and give me some delicious foods and drink. I don’t like the other mouse to search for food for live.

If I’m the prettiest cat, I needn’t join this such boring English lesson, and needn’t write this strange English article.

If you ask me write English article next time, I prefer to become a cat!

7.

If I’m the prettiest cat, I think my owners is very cruel for me. I can only make them pleased because I am only a cat. Because I didn't catch the mouse, I can only eat and sleep. I never walk anywhere. So I became very fat. Fat cat is very ugly. So they begin to hate me.

我曾经最喜欢的一篇作文没能留下来。那个学生在作文里写着，如果我是猫，抓到耗子就是美，如果我的洪水，冲垮堤坝就是美。我说不出地喜欢后面那一句。

昨天正打算上床去，看到有一个台开始放《雏菊》，于是就坐着看了。看到半截很激动，因为发现居然还有姜大卫。一开始看到导演是香港人，就觉得应该会有个把中国人在里头吧，原来还是个腕儿级的呀。姜大卫在这片儿里居然笑了，还笑得很邪乎。

然后我想到大屈了，因为他有一回坐在电视机前看电视，由于离电视距离太近，被我误以为他在看电脑。现在我也是以这样的距离看电视。眼睛一天比一天差。

今天早上刚反手把门带上就发现没有带钥匙出来。于是想了各种办法都没有开开门。于是我使出最后一招，大力踹门。踹了N下以后，门锁松动了，但是还是没开。隔壁的小男孩起床了，他很诧异地看到平时早已消失的我居然站在门前。我问他有没有小螺丝刀，他建议我去找房东。于是跟房东联系了，奔到她住的地方拿来一大袋钥匙，挨个儿试，发现全都不能打开我的门。于是继续踹门，仅踹了三下，门就开了。然后又去还钥匙给房东。一顿折腾导致我比平时晚一个小时出门上班。打电话拜托Candy帮我买了一个包子。

晚一个小时出门发现街上不一样啊。阳光很是灿烂温暖，一点也不像平常出门时那么阴冷。卖水果的小摊贩都占上道儿了，不时有穿睡衣的大妈穿街走巷。北京西路路口的交警长得真帅。平常我上班的时候都只能看到五六十岁的协警。

到办公室后拿着各种证件和Candy去办居住证，果然去一次不行，还得再去。

然后给手机设了彩铃，哈～哈～，是David Bowie的《Changes》。爱死这首歌了。都给我打电话吧！以前我的来电铃声也是DB的，《Outside》，也爱死这首歌。总之爱死DB了。今早上班路上听的东西也换成了DB的专辑《Reality》。

公司要办周年庆，庆祝牛津进入中国十周年，成立上海公司五周年。Harry告诉我们，得出一个节目。真是郁闷啊。爱咋咋吧。不由又想起几年前在长飞时，忘了名目是什么，去舞伴歌《春天的故事》。那是我最惨痛的经验。当时下一个节目是劲舞，正好就是我的学生，他们穿着锃亮的黑皮装在旁边看，让我很痛苦。也就是那个时候，面被称为“镲姐”，因为她去军乐队凑数敲大镲。

踹完门我一上午心情都极为爽快。果然人生需要适量的暴力。

换手机了，换手机了！开始用我的第九支手机。这回这支是日文英文系统的，发不了中文短信。我给同事试了一个用日文汉字发短信，发现她收到的不显示，而我收到的中文短信，只要是日文汉字里没有的字也全都不显示。嗯，以后都给我发英文短信吧。Anyway，就是喜欢东芝手机的样子啊。说到这个，还是无比悲悼我那支橙色的811T。真想为它而恸哭一场。

周末开看《品花宝鉴》，两个晚上看了不到三百页。啊，脑海中时不时浮现木兰词的句子～“安能辨我是雄雌”。书里那些美貌优伶的名字都是芳啊，兰啊，蕙啊，香啊，玉啊什么的，爱哭爱生气爱脸红，这哪里是男人嘛！官人们品评他们时也是用花来作比，什么牡丹啊，梅花啊，杏花啊，莲花啊，等等等等。看来中国古代的同志其实也不是个同志了，爱的男人也是像女人的男人。书里徐子云就对夫人说，因为带女子去陪酒不像样子，所以带男人，而这些相公又貌美如花，既可怡情悦目，又会不心生淫意，所以非常合适。估计这些人到了如今这年代就不会闹相公了，因为如今这年代，不要说陪酒了，想陪什么就给你陪什么，品种丰富，各式各样的女人，必有一款适合你。我还在网上看到有人著文考据书里的田湘帆和苏蕙芳在清朝是有生活原型滴。另一对人设显然也是受了“不在梅边在柳边”的影响。

书里很多诗词歌赋，看的有些费劲。能看得下去就看，看不下去就pass。为什么明清人写小说非要写些不影响情节发展的花会诗会呢？当时看镜花缘我就只看前半部，到了唐小山的部分就翻翻翻翻翻翻，很快翻过去了。看红楼梦也是。我根本看不出来那些人作的诗啊联啊哪里好哪里不好嘛。

本以为讲同志情的小说会没什么女人出场，娘的，闹相公归闹相公，该娶老婆的也不落下，一大帮夫人小姐丫头们聚在一起也要不时赏花赛诗行酒令，也占了好大一篇。

不过男色也是如今的潮流，小生们越来越嫩。可是为什么我没看到什么真正貌美如花的呢？前天在新闻里看到好男儿们要拍网王的电视剧了，我坐在电视机一不小心忍不住就呕。为什么要让这么丑的人出演菊丸啊？？？？真他娘的。

上周末去宝山路，在那边看到许多地摊卖着二手手机、CD机、电板等等。其中有一个卖CD的。我很感兴趣地在那个摊位前蹲了半个多小时，挑了三张碟。好多碟大概是德语的，半点也看不懂。有一套日本出的Placebo合集，估计是好东西。但是我曾买过的一张Placebo却不怎么对我的耳朵，所以决定放弃。

最终挑了一张法语歌，一张电影对白，一套莫扎特的歌剧。

那莫扎特估计面会很喜欢。不过我对歌剧没什么兴趣，那摊主狂向我推荐，就买了。

电影对白是好几部老法国电影的，Jules et Jim, Hiroshima Mon Amour等等。碟的包装设计很不赖。

法语歌是一个老头儿。按我以往的挑碟经验，但凡是歌者老而丑的，多半不会难听。

回去一听，几张碟都还不错。以前曾有过买失手的，错买了一张法语rap。Rap可算是我最不喜欢的音乐类型了。所以抱着继续学法语的念头，那张碟一直没扔。但是其实想想，就算是中文的rap我都未必听得懂。法语要学到什么地步才能听懂rap呢？

有一首歌叫做海、爱、死。感觉还不赖。我凭着两年前用功学过的那点儿法语残渣大概也看了个小明白。海是等待着迷失在陆上的孩子的摇篮，爱是等待着满怀梦想的孩子的船，死是等待着对阳光好奇的孩子的路，这是你的欢笑、你的恐惧、你的舞蹈，我的孩子。

很久以前我很喜欢这句话，然后写在纸上给Puppy看。

现在也还是吧。

Drain You

One baby to another said
I'm lucky to have met you
I don't care what you think
Unless it is about me
It is now my duty to completely drain you
A travel through a tube
And end up in your infection
Chew your meat for you
Pass it back and forth in a passionate kiss
From my mouth to yours because I like you
With eyes so dilated
I've became your pupil
You've taught me everything
Without a poison apple
The water is so yellow, I'm a healthy student
Indebted and so grateful
Vacuum out the fluids Sloppy lips to lips
You're my vitamins because I'm like you

为去明歌的演唱会而做准备，耳机里最近只有明哥。听着《暗涌》想起《愈快乐愈堕落》。最喜欢的一幕是柯宇纶把酒醉的陈锦鸿送回家搬上床，然后拿着他以前送给邱淑贞的男用古龙水狂喷，第二天陈锦鸿在满身满床满屋的香氛中醒来。
昨天Puppy让我推荐不错的动漫OST，我推荐了H＆C。听说又要出电视剧版了，看了一下已定的两个主角，模样还成。希望不要像电影版一样，除了阿久以外，全是惨不忍睹。当初下到电脑以后，我和面看了半分钟就决定不看了。
最喜欢H＆C里的一幕是竹本骑车回来以后，一身疲累地找到阿久，阿久正在发烧，他躺在阿久身旁的地上，阿久醒来看见他，很开心地对他笑，然后就握住他的手，半句也没有问他为什么消失了这么长时间。然后两个人牵着手睡去。
这一幕又令我想到N多年前看过的《魔女の條件》，泷泽照例去病房看已然成为植物人一般的松岛，松岛却意外地醒来，他们互相看着就笑了，泷泽头靠在病床上，两个人握着手闭上眼睛。记得当初看到这里时，丽莉说感觉真好，如果搁大陆的电视剧，早就大呼小叫涕泪横流了。

夏娃的第八天
曲:黄耀明 minimal 词:林夕编: minimal
在最初开天创地
独有野花开放的香味(不知味)
但你禁果的气味
让我满身沾上这旖旎(怎躲避)
是你开始这出戏
在耳边呵一口气
掀动心底的美
曾经你是我天与地
如今四面八方都取代你
其实只手怎遮掩我的好奇
如果我是你的禁忌
除非你没看清楚自己
其实你使我这样媚
你不要皱着眉偷欢喜
是你禁果的气味
让我懂得一切的滋味
真多得你
多么诡秘
是你开始这出戏
在耳边呵一口气
曾经你是我天与地
如今四面八方都取代你
其实只手怎遮掩我的好奇
如果我是你的禁忌
除非你没看清楚自己
其实你使我这样媚
你不要皱着眉偷欢喜
掀动心底的美
曾经你是我天与地
如今四面八方都取代你
其实只手怎遮掩我的好奇
如果我是你的禁忌
除非你没看清楚自己

今天邮箱收到的本周星座运程里说：你会为了一大笔的开支而在心里反复盘算，悬念不安，怎样支配才最划算呢？提示：最好的方法就是分别写下利弊，左右权衡后再做决定。

果然是这样，但是没有经过权衡，已经把这笔钱花了。

昨天一晚上和今天一早上都是想，花得对不对啊？行不行啊？想的头晕脑胀。